our time

i had dinner with my evil twin tonight and like everytime before we are happy as long as we are together. don't you love being with someone you can always be honest and dreamy with, the world is bright again and all the possibilities in life surface. i am thankful for having met certain people in life that i can feel this at ease being with. we were rewinding memories and memories took us back to 5 years ago when we were freshmen in the university. it was a time of pure happiness. nothing seemed to bother us for real. we were ever carefree, grabbing coffees from starbucks, skipping classes, rushing homework and sleeping on the 11/F of lady ho tung hall. when she talked about it i felt the atmosphere as it was immediately, life used to be light.

and now we are out of that life forever. i feel old and worn out. yes, i know, i am merely 24. but aren't you scared of that suddenness? much time has passed away without our attention.

anyways, i totally love us. i am thankful that at the end of the day i have got people who have shared life with me to share more life with me. this is the most important.

as for the rose garden, the thing that happened with me was that i picked my rose way back. i loved it because it was special and beautiful and i wanted it to be mine. it is easy to get your heart set when you start fresh. i was pretty much a blank sheet when i decided that i wanted that rose, and i knew then that not another rose would be lovelier than the one i picked. it takes a little time to discover how one truly feels though, sometimes.

i can't believe that after all these years i am still the crash and burn kind of girl. i guess i have to be this way to make life whole for me.

by the way, why am i feeling sleepless again? :/