i am starting to wonder if this is the right thing to do. but afterall it is a happy thing to do. i guess the serious lovesickness i have is due to the sudden change of there and here. when i wake up from a nap i cannot recognize my own room. i cannot see him anywhere and thus i cry and become incredibly sad. i wish i could enjoy work and life like i did before. i know i can. i just want to get well right away though. i can't wait to be happy and pretty again.
