i must have done something good.

one of the reasons why i love being with my mother is that she always knows what is the right thing to do. even when the world tells her the opposite, she trusts what her heart tells her and for some reasons she is always right about things. this woman has guts, and she does not give up. i have never seen her giving up.

i want to have guts, as well. maybe i do have some guts, since i am her daughter. but i also freak out a lot. i am always afraid of being fired, for example. i worry too much about the future sometimes, love-wise, career-wise and health-wise etc. thursday hasn't come yet but i am already afraid of the thursday after next thursday. *sigh*

we must have done something good by offering to help in an old lady and her grandchildren's helpless hours. tonight i am so happy to know that they are able to plan a future and have lives fulfilled. soon they will be able to make their own livings. everything has turned from the dark to the bright. i am truly moved by life and the miracles we can make by truly believing in the good and the true and the beautiful.

we are not rich, actually, we are far from rich. since dad passed away, i have been living on the idea that everything i have has to be hard-earned. i know not many ways of investment, but i know it by heart the one investment he taught me - save people, not money. maybe that is why i feel rich all the time, despite how much money i have in my pocket.

i love my parents.

8th July 2011, 3 years from dad's deathday. it is hurting less now, i think. but it feels still like he has never really left.

i know he must be proud of this family if he were here.