being a free-fall

isn't much fun.

i think he mentioned more than once that i only started dating him for the sake of dating, that i wasn't in love. and i think i told him more than once that whatever i do is for the sake of happiness. if dating wasn't a happy thing i probably wouldn't want to have anything to do with it.

why else would you want to date, if it's not only for happiness? why do people fall in love, if it isn't for happiness?

it certainly is difficult.

it will be too painful to do it again, but then, it has always been so beautiful, even when it's broken, it's still good.

i have been writing less, because words can hurt.
i wonder if my words are really necessary. afterall, they are just thoughts pretending to be reality.

about soulmates

yesterday i took my lunch break to wander in a bookstore, and there it was, i spotted

Brida by Paulo Coelho.

"But how will I know who my soul mate is?"

"By taking risks," Wicca said to Brida. "By risking failure, disappointment, disillusion, but never ceasing in your search for Love. As long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end."

sometimes we read books just to reassure ourselves what we have always believed.

it was a nice day.

i sat in a pure white, quiet gallery for 8 hours today
reading a book, greeting strangers, smiling.

and it was relaxing,
especially when the sun was setting and the light beams fell through the glass.

it was a peaceful evening.

i have long forgotten the joy of being alone,
yet, not so alone.


this morning i woke up, read an article.
it said that 2012 is going to be the end of the world.

i wonder how far a person can go

if he/she keeps digging.


where roads are made i lose my way - tagore