life is a breeze

the weather was so nice this morning i could not help but slowed down my steps to feel it. i live a bit far away from the city centers, but i surly do not want to live among crowded bulildings anymore. i love this walk (though sometims a rushy run) downhill to the minibus stop every morning, especially during summer's eve, the trees and the sky and the birds and the sunbeams and the shadows and the breeze all come together to form one pretty picture i cannot get enough of.

dreams have deprived me of sleep last night. it was miserable being trapped in between dreams and awakenings. that was how the i-dream-to-make-sleep-boring thingy backfired.

easter holidays came and left. here comes a loaded week for me again. sometimes i am impressed by my own capabilities. if i were a bit stronger physically (or if i were a boy), i would be able to do even more. but i think i have managed to do well, even when i am this small.

today i have come to decide that the more invisible the future seems, the braver i will be; the tougher life becomes, the stronger i will live; the greyer the days look, the more i will treasure just everything and everyone around me, and most importantly, the more able i am, the more love i will give.

my mother has this magical power to ease people's hearts. being with her is like being settled slowly down to the bottom of the sea, in which everything is restored to peace. she makes people feel secured. (also because she always remember to keep mouths well-fed i reckon, haha!) i think i have got this little gift from her, though not as great, i am glad that i am able to be positive and offer people the comfort they need from time to time.

i feel it more strongly each day that i have got the best friends and families one can possibly get. i cannot whine about life anymore. it surly is fun going to new places meeting all sorts of new people, but it is also good here. maybe i tend to be stuck in my own small world, but i am happy in it, i feel content because everything and everyone around me is wonderful.

spiritually i feel so fulfilled. if i dare asking for more now, it will only make me too greedy. let's just work hard for what we may or may not have, and make it a journey rewarding despite its end. :)


p.s. i do feel like i need a bathtub desk one day. it looks so totally mine!