the barbie porn and the angel of death

i read an article on how someone tried to make a lesbian porn with 2 barbies. at first she tried to place the black barbie on top, and realised that it would not work, because some people could get the idea that the black was the brutal one while the white was the innocent one being seduced. so she tried placing the white barbie on top, it would not work either, because she started to worry about people getting the idea that the white was superior over the black.

there was simply no way out. no matter how it looks like people will still get an unintended idea.

and then i read something about the serial-killers. there is a type of serial-killers named the angel of death (because they work in the healthcare sector, usually as nurses or doctors,) under this category there are 3 types of killers: the mercy killer who believes that he/she is helping the victims by killing them, the sadistic killer who simply enjoys exerting power over the helpless ones, and the 3rd one which i find especially interesting - the malignant hero.

the malignant hero first endangers the victims and then goes on to save them, simply because he/she wants to make himself/herself a heroic figure. and this is how he/she does it: he/she poisons the patient, and leaves the room, and rushes back again just to show the world how selfless he/she is to have made such great efforts saving a hopeless patient.

it seems so pathetic, isn't it.

but what seems more pathetic is that i can actually see many malignant heroes here in our society. someone always gets a bigger share of the pie, and gives a tiny bit out naming it after "charity". have it ever occurred to them that if they only take what they need and not what they want at the first place, their "charity" is not even necessary?

but of course they have no idea. most of them don't even know the difference between "need" and "want". this is where everything goes wrong - that some people have unlimited wants.


my wisdom is as scorned as chaos.
what is my nothingness
to the stupor that awaits you? - arthur rimbaud


now i have to thank milo for having brought rimbaud to me. :)