most people may think it takes certain laziness to work for the government. according to my experience, that isn't entirely true. the truth is you can choose to work lazily almost everywhere, your boss may not notice, and if you don't mind losing your colleagues' respect. (respect is ever a hard-earned thing.) but one thing about working for the government is true: it limits your flexibility. (but sometimes in a good way.)
i have to say that the months i have spent in the arts education section have been just as rewarding as the months i spent in the gallery. it's my 7th month here to be exact. of course it's fine to work overtime when it's necessary. a normal employee will not leave without getting his/her duties for the day done. but it's certainly lame to stay around just to prove to your boss how hardworking you are. it's probably cruel, but productivity should be result-oriented. and i wonder if a person's capability is productivity-oriented. it seems to be. but still, your attitude matters most to everything. you can choose to be lazy, but it's also your life that you're lazying around. honestly i don't think i'd even go to work if i don't need to raise my family. laziness lives in my bones. i can feel it like the blood running through my body. i would have slept for long hours and written a lot about everything, or gone dating and dancing till dawn. but the sense of responsibility is just something stronger. now having a job and doing it good matter too much to me. because i can't even start to imagine how to sustain my family if i don't earn enough. even in my dreams i am still working. sometimes i secretly blame dad for not having planned better, how come he didn't see the day that once he was gone it would only be helplessness remained? but maybe he didn't even get the time to think. it was, afterall, a disastrously speedy brain tumour that caught us all unguarded. now it's my turn to be the planner.
i used to have two biggest problems that hinder my way to success, no matter in school or study or even personal matters. the first one is punctuality and the second one is carelessness. i am obsessed with working fast because the sense of speediness makes me feel extraordinary. punctuality and carelessness were not minded in the gallery, but they started to haunt me in my current job. i had no choice but started to adjust, i think i am now 85% punctual and 80% careful, though still not perfect.
everyone works for a reason, be it money, a mission, or a dream, or a combination of the three reasons mentioned, how lazy a person can get is probably decided on how strong his/her reason to come to work is. i reckon that some people in the government once had those reasons, but with the job being too stable and the salary being too good, (in cases of those who have an "iron bowl") , (and seriously they have been working for too long,) most reasons became weak and disappeared. that's one of the reasons why the bureaucracy is often attached with a certain sense of laziness. and obviously, everywhere there are some people who don't know why they are even where they are doing what they do.
so maybe it's a person's desire that determines his/her goal that determines his/her attitude then?
no matter what it's always useful to think about why you are here doing what you do. if you can't find a reason good enough you probably shouldn't be doing it.
last night i went to a classical concert with milo. seeing perry so conducting the orchestra and choir makes me think that being a conductor is certainly one of the coolest thing in the universe. awwww, why weren't i born with that talent?
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