sometimes it only takes a long long time

to wait. sometimes it takes too long that you eventually forget
what you have been waiting for. but the waiting is not dead yet, it is only asleep. until someone or something comes around to wake it up and maybe when it is the right time it will then be awaken.

my heart is so full. i don't know why it took such a long time. maybe the time was never quite right. and i was never sure enough. it is not just a thing. it is major. and sacred. and it has what it takes to indulge me like a little princess. i only ever dreamt of having it. but i never did. i didn't even dare saying it out too loud.

now i have it. i want to keep it.