hello handsome

i don't remember what the world was like when everywhere i went i seemed to run into someone handsome. the "life is good today, a pretty boy looked my way." kind of strange co-incidence used to happen all the time.

it doesn't happen anymore. maybe it was because i always sort of kept my eyes wide open, until i ran into someone i could love, and then the way i looked at things completely changed.

objectively i can still tell who is handsome, and who is not. but you know how you secretly think he is the most handsome boy in the entire universe. you don't even need to go take a walk around the globe to prove it. you simply know it, and you know it for sure. (and you will say it for sure.) it is almost like "i can't do jude law anymore" if you know what i mean.

this summer has been an awesome one. i am more overloaded than i was, but you see, there is this magical thing love can do to a person - it motivates positivity. i have heard all sort of sayings about how you shouldn't try to seek happiness outside yourself, but seriously, there are always people whose presence make you happy, be them family, friends or a lover. i need these people in my life.

i got a little bit overwhelmed in the past few days. i have been feeling like the universe is finally working its way for me.

i want to open a cafe DESPERATELY much. it is the thing i wake up thinking about everyday, i walk around with this desire squeezing my stomach, i swim in the possibilities of it and smile to myself. i keep picturing it over and over again.

is it one of those moments? you know how people encounter certain moments in life in which they feel like they have to risk starting over to take a risk.

anyways, may the universe empowers me, giving me the power, wisdom, courage and love i need.