we can't live with them, can't live without them. - which is a twist of a quote from dr. elbert, which reminds miss cherry of a quote she found on a sunday back in april, almost a year ago, saying:"it’s funny how we always find ourselves wanting to run back to the ones we used to love, for some reason, thinking it would work out differently the second time."
and then somehow i heard this song on the music player sung by a german rockstar whom i thought i saw on the street of copenhagen, starting with:
"right from the moment i saw your face, it occurred to me that you were the love of my life."
sometimes i think life can only go on in the co-existence of contracdictions, that there will never be a solution for most of the difficult situations we encounter here or there, that the only way to deal with tough choices is to keep choosing, jingling and struggling and never come to a definite and ultimate conclusion.
but i don't want to choose anymore. i have made up my mind. i know what i want, i am only secretly wishing that what i want wants me enough, and what i do not want can stop wanting me.
anyways, tomorrow i will have the first meeting with my language exchange buddy. excited! :D no matter how things turn out i hope i can at least master his language, for deep in my heart i am a control freak and the mastery of a language appears to be the most symbolic form of possessiveness.
in the middle of the night, have you ever noticed how bold and beautiful a matisse can be?
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