because you live

have you ever once thought to yourself that you do not deserve to be loved? i guess at times we can be weak. human beings. blah, blah, blah.

i understand and believe that the ultimate goal in life is to strike a balance between every pair of binary oppositions. but most of us only fall into extremes, that's why it's ever so hard to live a balanced life. it is merely impossible. everything can be too much too easily. (even money, even love.)

my dad had a saying (yes he had quite a lot of sayings,) in chinese it's "發到唔清唔楚", if i am to translate it, it should be "too rich that everything becomes unclear." from him i have learnt that what often happens in life is how we never miss the water until it's gone as it is too easy to be overwhelmed by its "muchness" that our eyes are flooded. Thus our visions blur.

what does it have to do with not feeling like you deserve to be loved? i simply wrote 2 paragraphs of irrelevance. i think i just want to tell myself that, i love you. even when i think i don't i still do. my life evolves around you and you are the center of my universe. you make everything worthwhile, impossibilities possible simply by taking the chance to believe in something magical. i love you not because you have done good. i love you because you live, you are here, and you are always with me.