when i am sick i spend more time on my bed staring at the empty ceiling and daydreaming.

nostalgia is the word today. there are lives that cannot be lived twice, second chances that cannot be given trice. autumn hugs me like a coat hugs a kid. i have been dizzy-minded and completely unmotivated for 3 and a half days already.

sickness is a scary thing. it knocks you down just like that, without a warning. i know, it is merely a flu, no big deal, we all get it from time to time. BUT ME. ME. i have been sick every 2 weeks since i don't know when. =_______= how can i not be annoyed? why am i not healthier? not to mention how much i hate spending my money on seeing the doctor. oh well, though i love dr. chan. he is so gentle and his medicine always works. <3

i get to start doing sports soon. seriously. :/

i am scared whenever i feel unmotivated because most of the time i am one of those people who have to keep doing things or thinking about things to feel like things are working out, when i am unmotivated, the world stops. (it seems to me.)

i want to wake up tomorrow and feel positively motivated and energetic and may my flu and the flu that is knocking on my beloved door be gone, amen.