hello. late saturday night. early sunday morning. we had a bbq tonight. and it started to rain. i spent the morning preparing birthday surprises again. it was absolutely fun. the sun was so nice.
the rain was, too. this world is gorgeous.
after everyone was gone, i watched a chick-flick lying on the sofa. call me shallow. but movies like this make me happy, when i was 14 and when i am 24. i bet they will still move me as much when i turn 34. because they convey simple messages, they perfect lives, they make mistakes small, and regretful things forgettable. and well, most importantly, they always have cute guys playing the absolutely in love role, and these guys act like they hardly have an idea how cute they totally are.
and i love that.
when i was unhappy i went into the shop and rented 5 or 6 movies each time and kept playing one after another each night, filling my world with somebody else's fairy-tales. there is a reason why these movies have a market, because many souls are lonely, and many people yearn to be happy, and the real world lacks romance. and movies take away time.
so i think that is what i will do again.
i am not sure what is making me unhappy. i am indeed, feeling sucessful and all. i am good at what i am doing, and i am doing things good. i think i can do a lot still. but there is something i want for myself and no matter how hard i try i don't think i can have it for real.
a girl like me is only ever going to be satisfied with one thing, the one-life-one-love-you-are-mine-i-am-yours-you-love-me-i-love-you-say-goodnight-and-stay-together sort of thing.
well, i am sleepy. goodnight.
the rain was, too. this world is gorgeous.
after everyone was gone, i watched a chick-flick lying on the sofa. call me shallow. but movies like this make me happy, when i was 14 and when i am 24. i bet they will still move me as much when i turn 34. because they convey simple messages, they perfect lives, they make mistakes small, and regretful things forgettable. and well, most importantly, they always have cute guys playing the absolutely in love role, and these guys act like they hardly have an idea how cute they totally are.
and i love that.
when i was unhappy i went into the shop and rented 5 or 6 movies each time and kept playing one after another each night, filling my world with somebody else's fairy-tales. there is a reason why these movies have a market, because many souls are lonely, and many people yearn to be happy, and the real world lacks romance. and movies take away time.
so i think that is what i will do again.
i am not sure what is making me unhappy. i am indeed, feeling sucessful and all. i am good at what i am doing, and i am doing things good. i think i can do a lot still. but there is something i want for myself and no matter how hard i try i don't think i can have it for real.
a girl like me is only ever going to be satisfied with one thing, the one-life-one-love-you-are-mine-i-am-yours-you-love-me-i-love-you-say-goodnight-and-stay-together sort of thing.
well, i am sleepy. goodnight.
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