on loveletters

most of the loveletters i wrote, i dare not to read them again. (ok, some of them are emails, that's why i can keep reading them even after having them sent.) i think i used to keep reading them. and the stupidest thing i did was not writing them and reading them repeatedly afterwards, it was to wait for replies.

not every juliet gets a romeo. and i'm not even a juliet to begin with.

sometimes i think to myself that if there is ever a next time, i will be literally the coolest girlfriend ever, that i would not spill my heart out and be so readable. that i would be mysterious always. but then it would not be me. i am a book, afterall, although sometimes difficult, with dictionary invented it only takes some wisdom and patience to get by.

i will always be a clumsy girlfriend. (yup. so uncool.)