i have been trying hard not to fit in.

i will always be awkward. i will always be clumsy.
i will always be writing and reading and nerdy.
i will always have strange thoughts at wrong moments,
and be poetic in a city too fast to afford it,
and be romantic in a life too ordinary to be so,
and think too surly at an age too young,
and talk about life like i know it.

but as always, i will try my best and hopefully,
as always
i will somehow

make it.

you make a decision, and you stick with it.
i suck at making small decisions, it takes me ages.
but the big ones, i have had them made already.