moving mess.

these days i am busy packing, waiting to make a major move and unpack again.
i have been pushing myself and now i am on the edge of falling into the trap of a flu.
poor little cherry, why is life especially tough for you? but then you can't complain, because whenever a door is closed god is generous enough to leave you a window open. although i don't know if what you are moving on to is what you'd love your life to be. but god gives you the gift to be thankful always.

i don't have a religion, but my belief is strong. i will believe in every good thing in this world.

one of the most frightening fears a girl like me usually feel is the fear of going farther with him. because i cannot be sure if he will give me the future i want. i am convinced that he possibly won't. it looks like he loves me now. and he says so. but sometimes, among certain small matters, i am shocked by a sudden realization that it may not be that kind of love i have ever dreamt about.

everything with him has been too realistic. sometimes i feel like i can't handle it at all.