Detox Day 4

Yesterday I went to see the Moomin movie with Milo and it is just such an accustomed ritual to get popcorn and cola at the cinema so I did it automatically. Bad move, I know.

And then I had a salmon salad for dinner. And a bowl of plain yogurt when I got home.

This morning I woke up and did a yogurt-honey DIY facial mask. :)

Detox Day 3

I deem yesterday as a 80% failure. I was pretty safe at the Chinese Tea House lunch and I managed to only eat the ginger pieces from the sweet and sour pork plate, lots of water spinach and a shrimp dumpling, a bowl of congee and a few small pieces of meat.

In the afternoon I ate a lemon tart (my colleague's farewell cake.) And a cup of black tea with milk.

At night it was mother's day dinner so I failed totally. I ate a bit of everything from peking duck to sweet and sour pork, drunken chicken and fried rice. Though I also ate veggie and had a bowl of soup.

:S 

And as I am typing this I am sitting at Tai Hing having rice noodles and a piece of toast.

So, I just have to start over. I will be eating only fruits and drinking 5 greens juice starting from this afternoon. I hope I can do it for 3 days.

Detox Day 2

Yesterday was not very sucessful. I had blueberry yogurt for breakfast and it was wonderful. But at lunch it became difficult as I had a lunch date with my colleagues and we went to a restaurant that offered nothing that fit my programme. So I had fish and a little bit pork, luckily my colleagues ate most of the potatoes for me. (And I managed to finish all the veggie which I usually wouldn't touch.) At night I had strawberry yogurt. It was not so easy to do so when my mom had made delicious spaghetti!

This morning I had strawberry yogurt again and the challenge will come at lunch when I have to eat with boss and clients. There is this Chinese restaurant and there is this dessert I really like and there is this boss who always remembers... :S

But you see, in the past year I had spent hkd24 on buying an airy bun with tea every morning. The bun gave me fatigue. That's why I am very happy with the yogurt I can eat, which costs less and is healthier.

*I am only minimizing my solid food intake for a week as my system needs to be cleansed. After this I will eat healthy and normal. Food is a pleasure!

Detox Day 1

Thanks to my little sis's support and encouragement, I have officially started to detox since yesterday. I was successful during breakfast and lunch, but at the company dinner it became quite difficult, luckily it was Japanese food we were having so it wasn't very heavy.

So the plan is that I increase fruit and veggie intake daily, reduce sugar consumption (in fact I have started the sugar reduction a week ago as I suspected that it was one of the reasons that made me itch all the time. And too much sugar makes you age faster!) And avoid solid food intake for a week (so when I am hungry I drink a lot of water or tea or soup or eat yogurt etc.)

I had apples for breakfast in the morning and salmon salad for lunch. A cup of holick for tea (as I was very hungry) and sushi for dinner -- all fish. A glass of apple vinegar before bed and another glass at 7am this morning (that is when I start to wake up.)

I feel better already. :)

i am ageing! :O

it has become really obvious this weekend that i am ageing. despite the fact that i still look, dress and act younger than 28, i noticed today when i looked into the mirror after shower that there are wrinkles on my stomach area!

oh dear.

i spent all my time working so hard and now when i finally have some holidays i am confronted by the fact that i am already old.

yes, i am whining. 

and so i hurried up to put on mosturizer and olive oil on the "affected area" and drink a glass of vitamin C. 

that's the result of being a low-maintenance person for 20 years. now i only hope that it is not too late for me to start maintaining myself. :'( 

there is no door to my grief

i have decided to write it here, as i know you always read my blogs, and you are a constant supporter of my writing dreams. i could hardly sleep last night, all my dreams were feverish. i could hardly mourn in a decent way, there was no way for me to get to you, and there is no door to my grief. i wonder what happened and why, on which day and at what time, i am not sure i can ever get over it. it is my loss indeed, too swift and too sudden. i remember the nights we spent talking and talking about the many problems and feelings we had. the isolation we had to fight against. i remember our trip in bangkok, the way we ran into your stupid schoolmates at siam square. i loathed them. and i loathe them still. i remember us at angela's wedding party, the stupid thing we said about pigs and wolves. i remember your down feather jacket, the one that i always forgot to return and the one that i always forgot that i had returned. i remember you as a happy girl, even when you were sad your smiles were always beautiful.

i remember the day we met in our school's classroom. the fact that you knew my elder sister before me. it breaks my heart that we have been forced to part. i should have remembered our date on 20 november, and now i have missed it, and i have missed you forever.

i love you my dear dor, and it hurts so much that i can't hear from you again.

your smiles were the flickers of stars

your smiles were the flickers of stars
that came to me on a Tuesday night
and sailed with me through the dawn
of a Wednesday.

everyday i replay
the details of our sweetness
and the sweetness
of our togetherness.

sometimes i wish i could remember more.
i wish there were ways to trace
at what time, and on which day
that one kiss, one hug, and one touch happened.

as the stars flicker through time,
you give me my moments.
you are my sweet, my fate,
my one in a million.