it just takes a little thing to see.

all of a sudden i feel enlightened. i know at last. it has been a trap. the very important thing to do now is to make my heart very, very strong. i will need that power in the future. 

i may not be the smartest person in town, but i am not stupid. some things are easy to tell. the past few years haven't all been a waste though. i am sure that i have grown a little, if not a lot. i am sure that it has been a nice journey. it is the process that matters. it is just a little sad to find out that my efforts didn't change a thing. how it was then remains how it is now. people don't really change. 

i have to protect myself as there are people that i need to protect.