incredible pain on my chest

all kinds of possibilities, all kinds of worries.. 

i try not to think. i order my body to recover. 

i wonder, if this could be that, or that, or something else. 

i wish for it to go away. 

when it comes to sickness i am like an old lady. 

i will be my own doctor, if i may. 

the scariest thing is that when something really happens there are actually people on this earth who need me more than i need myself. 

for example, my mother. 

so that's the reason why something must not happen.

sleep now and wake up healthy, please.